My dad suffered a heartattack today. Rereading my last post weirds me out. It makes me feel like its my fault in a weird way. Don't worry though, I know it isn't, it was just a strange coincedence. It has been one of the worst days of my life. At the moment he is in an induced coma and I know he won't be conscious until friday at the earliest. Being here in the waiting room is making me more crazy than anything. But I should stay to support my daddy. I love him so much. This type of thing happening was honestly one of my biggest fears.
But I know I'm missing class and tests and just in general falling behind. At least I would feel like I was accomplishing something if I went to classes and maybe didn't fall so far behind. I really hate just waiting here. But I also should be here... just incase. But he has been stable all day. And the only real concern they have is of brain damage, which is aweful. But they won't be able to tell until they wake him up, which, like I said, won't be until friday.
And I guess its in my nature to avoid these situations. After my grandpa died I fought tooth and nail to not have my camping trip plans ruined. I think its how I cope... I don't like being distressed publically. I like to be distracted and then deal with it on my own terms. But this is my dad. My papa.
Gah. I don't know what to do. I'm so torn. I'm going to be stressed out no matter what I do. I just love him wayyyyy too much for this to be happening right now.
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Missing two or three days of class really shouldn't be a big deal at all, I'm sure your professors would understand and be willing to make adjustments for you. If you want to be there for your dad, be there for your dad.
ReplyDelete*hug* Be there for you dad and family. Class can wait until later.
ReplyDeleteFamily > Class imo. It'd drive me nuts too being in a waiting room if my dad was sick like that, but it might almost be worse being off at class while someone so important to you is in the hospital. I hope he pulls through with no lasting damage though, and I'll be sending good vibes your way. *hug* Stuff like this just sucks. :(
ReplyDeleteI agree with them, class can wait, but it will help to take a few minutes when you have a chance to email your professors, letting them know your situation and asking if they can accommodate you. especially if you'll miss a test or a big assignment. I hope your dad waes up just fine! ~hug~
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