Shame On Us... For All We've Done. :-D

So I am home from my 'best week ever'. It really was an amazing trip. Hardly anything went wrong. I felt a bit ill Saturday morning, but I'm sure that had a lotto do with the facts that I was probably seriously underhydrated and hadn't been getting regular sleep/meals. I started to feel better pretty quickly though. For both NIN shows Jarid and I went to wait in line around noon, and the doors didn't open until a bit after 6:30. Obviously we had quite a lot of time to socialize with the people around us in line. Having so many people who love NIN in one area was pretty fun actually. Surprisingly I didn't really have interaction with anyone I didn't like. During the wait before the friday show I went and bought a deck of cards and Jarid and I played golf a lot (a game picked up via Amy Pielow during Modest Mouse earlier in the week). Brandon, a nice guy from Dallas, was our line buddy for both shows, which worked out really nicely.
Alright the shows themselves were SO amazing. On the friday show they opened with the first three songs from Broken... which I didn't notice until later but I guess a lot of people were pretty excited since Trent did play ALL of The Downward Spiral at a New York show...My personal highlights were definitely Something I can Never have, Eraser, La Mer (both nights), burn (both nights), and Lights in the Sky. I was behind a lot of various tall people throughout this show, so I had a much harder time seeing. By the second half, however I did situate myself right next to the barrier so I could sort of lean around the tall people to see. :-D Oh. they played 31 songs both nights!! Holy Shit thats a long set.
The second show was definitely my favorite, despite the fact that I was pretty much dry humped (VERY INTENTIONALLY) by a drunk fucker. I'm sorry about being the stupid vulnerable girl in the scenario, but Jarid pulled me away from that guy. Thank you. Anyway he just played SO many songs that I wanted to hear on saturday!! I loved that they opened with Home again. :-D They also played Heresy, Piggy, I'm afraid of Americans (David Bowie Cover), Metal, Echoplex, Mr. Self Destruct, and of course, Right Where it Belongs (v.2). I never thought I would see that song. Ever. It was the song that made me love NIN my freshman year when Derek Hamm showed it to me on the bus. That day I went and bought With Teeth and The Downward Spiral. I use to cry everytime I heard it, but in that really good way. I annalyzed the song for a paper in Humanities because it had such an impact on me still, two years after first hearing it.
I just remember Jarid looking at me when it first came on, and I think my mouth just kind of went slack. I didn't get it really. I sort of subconsciencely fumbled for my phone to call Laura. I started to cry, like in a tear up sort of way, but I just didn't understand. Thankfully Jarid got it on film. The show continued fantastically, and Peter Murphy came out and did a couple of really awesome songs. He left the stage during the end of the song Final Solution after giving a really nice speach about Trent. It was really awesome.
Both nights they closed with Hand that Feeds into Head Like a Hole and then Hurt. What a perfect way to finish it... and when Hurt came started on saturday night... I lost it. I just started shaking and I couldn't really see between the tears and the sweat. The most perfect ending I can imagine.
Throughtout the second show I managed to stay right up front in the thick of things, though surprisingly it wasn't as intense as I might have thought... I had a bit of space for a lot of the second half. That however, did nothing to slow my perspiration! I'm kind of proud it a weird way about how disgusting I was after that show. My clothes were all very moist. In fact, when I removed them from my bag to do laundry the next day, they were still very wet. Eww... granted its tough to say how much of that was actually my sweat... REALLY ewww.
I realize that these are details that most of you probably don't care about, but I sort of need to document them so it doesn't fade. I've never felt as content and happy as I do right now. This was such an amazing week. Thanks so much to everyone who shared it with me. You are all amazing people. From Cloud Cult, to Modest Mouse, to NIN x2. to every damn thing I did this summer. I know a lot of excellent people.