Holiday relections

Emotions are what I've realized get people through life. For some people emotions are the horse driven cart onto which the rope they cling is tied. Kind of precarious, no? But my emotions are for me. And I like being happy. I like not feeling bogged down. I like a good cry when things are stressful. I like to sometimes feel numb and stare at the wall. I also apparently like control. Because I think most of this is in my control. But its good to not worry about the wind spooking the horse. Because getting dirty sucks, but sometimes worse things can happen when a horse is on the run then a puddle of mud.
Haha thats a bit of a cheesey metaphor. Sure its easier to control my emotions now. I'm sure Depo helps that. Not being in the middle of puberty helps. Being single helps. Having friends who aren't drama queens helps. But maybe if I had known that emotions were a surpasable obsticale in the first place many dilemmas might have been avoided? one always wonders. But I am content now!
My mom is my main exception. She irks me like NO other. I freak out easily. It actually embarrasses me how frusterated she can make me just by calling me. I don't understand it. And as much as I want to blame her for a lot of things, some of which are legitimate, I think this is all me. She can't have possible earned the sort of reactions I always seem to have. I'm hoping this is still something that will pass. Maybe just another obsticle. Take em as they come I spose.

Hopefully everyone enjoyed Easter. Family is sometimes hell. but sometimes its incredibly refreshing. I enjoyed it very much mostly. Except for when my car got scratched up and when my ear got smashed... but hey, no holiday is ever perfect.